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Final hoursI dare not linger on this thought-
That this is it
The last time I'll see you again
Or hear your voice this way
That while I tried so desperately
To protect our final hours
It was hardly within my own control
To leave without regrets.
Your few smiles,
Of pleasant reassurance,
The first and final embrace-
Felt cut short
Spent under an illusion of having more time.
Never have I ever paid
More attention to my heartbeat
Nervous or calm
Afraid or secure
I monitored the mixed feelings.
As we sat together,
With a book
leaning against the shelves of innocence,
I watched you relieve your right arm from your jacket sleeve
And turn the pages with me.
And you shifting
Until we sat even closer
Before I knew it,
You asked permission
To put your arm around me.
This new feeling,
Across my back, grasping my shoulder tenderly
Like I was a fragile porcelain doll
And yet I felt a thrill of lighting shoot through me
What I needWhat I need now is hope in myself
not a boyfriend or vacation
I've got to take care of the me
I've created and changed with circumstance
I've already accepted my world
with an eager embrace
studying it's beauty and nature
I must review the person I am
and who I must become.
The season is right
to absolve myself
of yesterdays,errors, and woe
I'll consider each now
as if it's the future
so I'm the me I want to be.
Preventing regrets will then be simple
and hope will keep track of time
true to the person I'm proud to be
I'll truly be alive.
I don't miss you yetI don't want this
I'm losing you
no, you were lost
before I knew your name
you were lost
before you entered my thoughts
before you knew me.
I wonder where your dreams have wandered
or what path your life has led.
There's so much I want to know
and so much I have not said.
I wouldn't feel as hopeless anyway,
though it be within my nature,
if I had but simply
a different answer
than, "soon I have to leave."
But you know what?
I dont miss you already.
But not because I don't care!
I've wasted too much time and strength
feeling problems before they are there.
Instead, I choose to live for
in the moments
we can share.
I'll accept you for the blessing you are,
not a curse--
that's just not fair.
You gave such strength to my beating heart
when I convinced myself I was over.
You wouldn't let me give up on myself
and you'll probably never know it.
I wish the best for YouYou told me that you love him,
but he doesn't feel the same
I hear it in your written voice;
But listen to me,
you'll still be you inside.
And though for a while,
you won't be sure,
in the end you'll be alright.
Because his life is
and your life has just
as friends you'll be there for each other
to talk to and lift up.
You won't have
expectations for him
and you'll hope for him the best
but I want you to know that we're all on your side
hoping for YOU the best.
Seldom lasts forever,
in time he may fall for you,
but don't let your life be stagnant in wait,
let events play to their course.
Because, either way, your modesty,
your kindness, and your dreams,
will keep you close to those best friends
who brought your soul to its knees.
This unrequited love you feel
for a time will seem so strong
but I know you'll find another guy
and this feeling will be gone.
I know you'll try
to be strong
and hold your head high.
LithiumA single trickling rain drop
Like gossamer silk strands
Gliding along my third eye
Whispers wind's secret caress
I exhale. Lungs releasing-
Pressing translucent memories;
Fragment of a fragment
As water kisses rose petal,
Drifting down stream's curtain
Pretty little curtain.
Where the wizard lies.
He smiles up at me
With his monocled brow-
Sipping on warm tea
And fingers quacking casually
To the rhythm of his notes
This is a safe-zone. Free-zone.
Innocent eyes sparkle,
Imploring it to be true. I breathe.
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